tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-238412512011-04-21T18:24:31.211-07:00a mystic in an occultist's world...toxickmusehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01001676423486131135noreply@blogger.comBlogger411100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-23841251.post-28571436780703376572007-05-01T17:52:00.000-07:002007-05-01T17:56:30.693-07:00

this blog has moved to toxickmuse.liber.usif you want to catch up on the latest, i recommend you start here, at odin's dance, then go back and back until you get to the entry entitled, "more than this."thanks for stopping by.

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from the folks at Reasons to Say Yes:It's with mixed sorrow and relief that I announce the end of Reasons to Say Yes.Michael and I would like to thank those of you who attended and enjoyed (or simply supported) our parties in 2006. We enjoyed them too and only wish they could have generated more interest than they did.R2SY made 2006 a very interesting year for us in many different ways. Michael

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okay, so i pinky-swear that i'm not turning this blog into a list of video entries, but...this one, i just couldn't resist.tickle me emo.go ahead. click on it. i dare you.

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what a lovely thing to receive in email this morning...

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i just ran across this newsletter entry on enlightenment.com's blogsite, on zaadz.com. it's dated october 31st, 2006 and it's the last entry there, but after reading the section entitled "beyond my ken" (sorry, no direct link available, you'll have to scroll down), i decided to give it a huge recommendation here. jordan's well-thought out ideas about ken wilber, and what he's become, echo mine

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our muse-ings today come from germany via yahoo news. apparently our german friends are developing a brand new penis toy. According to the developer, jan vinzenz krause, they are "trying to develop the perfect condom for men that's suited to every size of penis."men need another reason to play with their penises. no, seriously.in this instance, there seems to be some practicality involved in

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the toxick muse is getting some other media exposure. no one is more surprised by this than i.the pirate pages, with the article "words as workings" from yours truly, as well as some astonishing art and words of crazy wisdom from other freqs out there.click here to download your pdf copy today.reprint at will, distribute widely.many thanks to arjay for all his hard work in editing and

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"Traveling the marshes" = the newest (and probably one of the oldest) euphemisms for sexual intercourse.Archeologists appear to have excavated evidence amid the ruins of a Temple in Luxor of an annual rite that featured anonymous, orgiastic sex, drugs, barrels of booze, and what must have been the ancient Egyptian equivalent of rock and roll. This "festival of drunkenness" celebrated the

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John Harrigan and Nick Pell discuss situationist threatre, esotechnology, and enochian magicks.Duration :: 00:32:56Hosts :: Brenden Simpson, WuRelease: Monday, October 30, 2006 http://www.media.brenico.com/occulterati/

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the good news is that the public areas of the toxick temple have a whole new look and i spent all weekend creating it.the bad news is that i am so far behind on reading/researching/writing it will take me the rest of the week to get caught up.and i've barely started the inner sanctuary yet.:: sigh ::got to find time to work on that bi-location thing, honestly...

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the internet is a lot like cable television, i suspect.i have to "suspect" because i have never had cable television. i've heard those who do have it say this too, though:"how can there be 500 channels and nothing on i want to watch?"the internet is like that for me tonight. terrabytes of content, and nothing appeals.it would worry me except that i suspect (again) that what i'm looking for

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okay, i can't resist...

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as in, two from out of the blue this morning (well, three, but i'm only going to talk about two of them here) to shake up whatever passes for reality here at the toxick temple.these two came from rob brezsny's FreeWill Astrology newsletter. the first was the opener:"If you desire to know where your spiritual work lies, look to your emotional pain." --Alan Cohen, "Wisdom of The Heart"i suspect

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from one of my new favorite websites, crimethinc.com. no, i'm not going to reproduce the whole thing here -- click your mouse and go read it, fer crissakes!but, a few excerpts.... You know it's true. Otherwise, why does everyone cringe when you say the word? Why has attendance at your anarcho-communist theory discussion group meetings fallen to an all—time low? Why has the oppressed proletariat

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When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro. -- Hunter S. Thompsoni saw him speak in kentucky when i was at university. he sat there drinking (scotch? or was it gin? i can't remember) liquor in a dry county and trashed kentucky thoroughly, along with the current administration (i'm not telling), religion, journalists and journalism; we laughed and he would excoriate us for laughing. god, we

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"To make love. we dance with Death. There will be flowing, there will be draining, there will be live birth and still birth and yet born-again birth of something new. To love is to learn the steps. To make love is to dance the dance". -- Namita Gokhale, The Book of Shiva i arose from the mists, body sinuous and serpent-like, scenting and tasting the air, caressed by each mote of water as it

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Forget past mistakes. Forget failures. Forget everything except what you're going to do now and do it. -- William Durant

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i've never done much dream work. for someone who usually doesn't remember her dreams, it's an undependable way to approach what i've come to call "the deep work." instead i've used meditation, contemplation, symbol analysis, visual arts, all good ways to access what's locked away in the deepest parts of me, to bring them to light for analysis, healing, and integration.so, when my friend

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DECLARATION OF CREATION I am going to burn down the worldI am going to tear down everything that cannot stand aloneI am going to turn ideals to shitI am going to shove hope up your assI am going to reduce everything that stands to rubbleand then I am going to burn the rubbleand then I am going to scatter the ashesand then maybe SOMEONE will be able to see SOMETHING as it really isWATCHOUT--Mel

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I came to the Inn of the Snakes (the Quetzalcoatl) with a group of friends. It did not appear the same as it did last time, but I understand that this chameleon-like quality is one of the hallmarks of the place. Once we got inside there were snake sculptures everywhere -- at least, they looked like sculptures when I looked right at them. In my peripheral vision, they moved and behaved as live

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toxick muse is a happy girl. her friends wu and fenris23 and new acquaintance klintron have all evinced interest in the meta-concepts expressed in Spiral Dynamics, an exciting new way to approach "emergent cyclical theory of human behavior and value systems."i read this book and all attendant discussions a year ago, but have had no one with whom to discuss it since, let alone anyone to help me

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...and no one knew it.(courtesy of Reuters)VIENNA (Reuters) - Austrian authorities have discovered the body of a man who apparently died at home in bed five years ago, a Vienna newspaper reported on Wednesday.The corpse of Franz Riedl, thought to have been in his late 80s when he died, went undetected for so long because his rent had been paid by automatic order from the bank account into which

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"The moment you come to trust chaos, you see God clearly. Chaos is divine order, versus human order. Change is divine order, versus human order. When the chaos becomes safety to you, then you know you're seeing God clearly."--Caroline Myss, Spiritual Madness: The Necessity of Meeting God in Darkness sometimes, it is very difficult to live in that truth.always though, it is very necessary...

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for those of you who've already checked into key23's dreamspace and read this piece there, my apologies. it just occurred to me this morning that i'd like a back up copy stored elsewhere...i became conscious that there was a lot of stuff in front of me, and it needed to be moved to the ship that was moored at the docks down on the river. there were a lot of people around, most of them people i'd

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(courtesy of Reuters:)Chocoholics find a venue and a menu By Belinda GoldsmithNEW YORK (Reuters Life!) - Slices of chocolate pizza. Syringes that squirt liquid chocolate into your mouth. Warm double chocolate fondue. Israeli restauranteur Max Brenner's new chocolate bar off New York's Union Square, Chocolate By The Bald Man, caters for chocoholics of all ages -- and is pretty much a

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the diamond/triangle is a symbol for mysticism -- 7 sides, 7 angles. the colors are significant —- red for fire, life, passion; blue for water, intuition, emotion. in fact, the color choices for each element are intentional.the OM yantra is self-explanatory. the ankh will be positioned right on my spine, between the shoulder blades (back of the 4th chakra). it’s in the center of a six-pointed

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i'm looking for an artist who can turn it into art.

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from an IM chat i had today:(10:12:14) toxickmuse: someone once told me that a scorpio moon gave me 3 basic choices for my life -- madness, occultism, or mysticism.(10:16:07) wesunruh: okay, I have to say that I think madness, occultism, and mysticism are all three facets of the same gem. sparkling darkly. i edited this a little for clarity. the basic message is intact, though.

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And at last I resolved to scale that tower, fall though I might; since it were better to glimpse the sky and perish, than to live without ever beholding day. -- H. P. Lovecraft, The Outsider, 1921 The only problem was, I fell.I too had once grovelled at the base of the monolith, cursing the darkness, tempted by the promise of light. The jagged silhouette, deeper black against the sooty sky, was

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Frequency23.net released into the airwaves the sexually seditious interview with yours truly today, wherein my true identity is "outed" and something of the life of a toxick muse becomes known.you can listen to it by clicking here.or you can download it by clicking here instead.kenchi used my friend pythriddle's music for the background. i wish i knew his website url, 'cause it's good stuff.

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sensual fun in the summer sun... now that there actually is some in humboldt.going to be in northern california on august 19th? check out the website at http://Reasons2SayYes.com to find out how you can get ticketed for this amazingly decadent event.

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don't talk to me. don't bother with words.just show meshow me one true thing about you.no. i said, "no words" -- sound vibrationsin the air, free of meaningexcept in contexts, which are endlessso just skip them. i only want to seeyou show meone true thingabout you.just one. one true thing, without words.is it so much to ask?and you,bleeding frustration and hurtfrom scarsthat never properly

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there's a rather remarkable codex of sigils posted on Frequency23 just now. it's an intriguing piece of work for me especially; i do not often work in sigils. i've found the author's output in this field truly interesting, though i know i'm not understanding even a fraction of the meaning that's there.juxtaposed with this precision artwork are several posted articles and discussions on the forum

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mazes are always entertaining -- i think it's where everyone gets to find out whether they're really predators, or prey.it's on for july 8th, 2006.if you'll be in the northern california area during that time, visit http://reasons2sayyes.com to find out more. you could also email info (at) reasons2sayyes (dot) com...i have it on good authority that tickets are already selling for this event....

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"We have a mission to create, for we are evolution incarnate.We are her self-awareness, her frontal lobes and fingertips.We are second-generation star stuff come alive. We are parts of something 3.5 billion years old, but pubertal in cosmic time.We are neurons of this planet's interspecies mind."Howard Bloom, Global Brain: The Evolution of Mass Mind from the Big Bang to the 21st Century

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i picked this article on the future of sex off of reuters today. by turns it has a-mused and be-mused me. however, it's only when you get toward the end of the article that its relation to consciousness and experience becomes evident. ALL IN THE MINDGoing even a level further, other researchers say in decades to come advanced devices will be able to stimulate the brain to create a sexual

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(copy/pasted from Toxick Bloging) Lion lustQueen of SpheresMonad windowless diviningArrow thrustDeathless yearsStar alembic role definingNeptune's tridentSea storm stridentWaves combiningForms intwiningSea salt teemingPledge redeemingBivalve plenumStar-spate venomScrewing physisStarry IsisOphidianMeridianGrail taskNight sky manicFierce love of Heaven, pull of soulLampshade maskLove joy panicDiana

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i know. it amazed me too. according to the national catholic reporter and the pew research center for people and the press, catholics are more likely to approve of torture than their protestant counterparts. and way more likely to think its groovy than their secular counterparts.bishop john h. ricard of pensacola-tallahassee, fla., member of the bishops’ committee on international policy thinks

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if you want a real fifth of november call to action, i have one for you. it proves there are reasons to pay attention to a select few who live in texas. it's just that their last names aren't ``bush.''most of you already know why americans should be enraged at the theft of their government by coporate interests and their big money. those of you who aren't so sure yet, read the text of this

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it's an academic sort of paper, removed from a book manuscript because of its subjects. what the publisher didn't want you to know.the overall book takes a systems theory approach to the subjects of high sexual arousal, vs. just getting high.i find the wording of part of his summation to be telling:Insofar as people are not sufficiently gratified within their ordinary d-SoC [discrete State of

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